I just put the baby in her bed, and had a thought to share what this term quiverfull means to me. I posted before over on Cass Knits! about some of the comments people have made to me over the years. Truly, I usually don’t stop to explain to them, because I don’t think they really want to know.
Quiverfull means that I accept the children that God sends me. It means that whatever baby He sends is perfect for me, because He chose to bless me with this particular child. It means that when I get pregnant, I can trust that it’s ok, because He chose this time for me to conceive. Even when I feel tired and overwhelmed and wonder how I will cope with what’s on my plate already, I accept the gift with gratitude. He has placed faith in me that I am worthy of the task, and that is enough.
But there is another side to quiverfull that doesn’t get talked about so much, and as I approach 40, it’s the side I am likely to find myself on sooner rather than later, and it’s the side that I thought about tonight as I put the baby to bed. Accepting all the children God has for me also means accepting when He says enough. Truly, I cannot imagine a time when there is no soft warm squishy body that molds so willingly to mine. I can’t imagine that there will be no fuzzy baby head to sniff, when there will be no milk to nourish a little life. I can’t imagine a time when I am free to set my schedule without worrying about when a little one might need me. And yet, I know that eventually that time will come, and that if I truly am quiverfull, I must accept it with grace.
I know that when the time comes, God will have already prepared a work for me. In fact, has prepared it from the beginning, because there is no “time” as we see it where He is concerned. It is only our own human limitations that cause us to see just this one plane where-in we exist. There’s a restfulness in that, if we can come to grips with it. The Bible is plain that before we were, God knew us, and that whatever life brings to us, He foreknew. There’s a restfulness in that as well.