Midlife Musings

Did I mention that? I am so angry. I feel like I could put on some radical ninja gear and just go destroy stuff. That kind of angry. And I know it’s just because I am hot. I hate to feel this way, all waspish and snappish. I’m ill, ill, ill, and no one has done anything to me, and there’s nothing to fix it except the A/C. I am betting is has more to do with not being able to breathe as the humidity rises.

So! Those of you who pray, please pray for me to get through this next 30 hours without biting off the heads of those around me. And, yes, it did take 2 blog posts before I remembered to ask for prayer. I’m still a work in progress.

I am totally well-done, and headed toward tough and stringy. Well, in fact my hair is already stringy, and my attitude is pretty tough, so, I guess I am already there, aren’t I? What brought all this on? NO AIR CONDITIONING. I wish I owned a couple of nursing uniforms, just so I could look pulled together while I sweat to death. I don’t know of anything lighter than those. DD#1 has a pair of the pants, and she reports them quite comfy. And also cool.

I did not even get dressed today, because I refuse to wear anything heavier than my pajamas until the A/C is fixed. That will be tomorrow. We’re getting a new one, and it will have a 10 year warranty. And I should not have to see the A/C guy for quite awhile. Except when he comes to pick up his checks. Sigh.

What new course would you like to see added to the nation’s school curriculum?
Where is your favorite place to sit when at home?
Do you buy anything in bulk? If so, what?

I’d like see manners and common sense brought out in a real big way. Talking to the teens I know, very few of them have any concept of how the real world works. And many of them are rude. I know it seems like parents ought to teach these things, but since we now count on the public schools for sex ed and self esteem training, seems like they could fill in the gap on these more necessary things, too. For more money, of course.

My favorite place to sit is my rocking chair. I don’t sit in it nearly enough, since I am usually here at the computer working when I sit. Thinking about that, I should probably work smarter, so I can sit in the rocking chair more. Ya think?

YES! I buy microwave popcorn in bulk. The biggest boxes of plain I can find, at least 2 at a time. Also pop-tarts.

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My house has been very quiet this weekend, and I have enjoyed it. Several family members have been gone, and it was eerily still. They are all home now, except for one, and the noise level has gone way back up. I’m glad to see them home safe, of course, but I am having trouble holding a thought in my head. I know there was something I planned to say on this blog today, but I cannot for the life of me remember what it was.

Maybe it was about how hard it is to think when surrounded by happy people. And how that’s okay, because I would rather be surrounded by happy people than be alone all the time. I’ll just have to think later, I guess.

My friend Deb posted some pictures recently of her trip to the beach. It made me realize just how long it had been since I’ve gone to see the sea. I really enjoy doing so, and the water mesmerizes me, so I don’t like to go with little people. I’m afraid I wouldn’t be paying close enough attention, and one would get away from me. There are so many of them, and only one of me, you see.

Deb is coming to see me next week-end though, and if she decides to stay long enough, then maybe I’ll take her to our beach. I can just see us, sitting on teak outdoor furniture, sipping sodas in the sand, wearing big old hats and laughing like school girls.

Here is something I have not seen before, and it was interesting enough that I need to tell you about it. There’s a new auction site on-line called bid4prizes. Unlike most auctions, where the highest bidder wins, this auction turns it upside down: the lowest unique bidder walks away with the goodies!

You do have to register to use the site, but standard registration is free. You can win a prize every 90 days, and you can bid with your cellphone, or online. Playing earns you points which you can spend in the store there.

I certainly would not mind winning this Scion. I’m not even going to pretend to be altruistic in the slightest. If I won that, I’d keep it for myself. I might occasionally let my husband drive it, but that’s about as nice as I’d get.

So! What would you like to win? And what would you do with it?

I told you I had a couple of drug related posts today, and here is the second one. I know a few people who are recovering addicts, and I have been watching and learning from them. It doesn’t matter what they were addicted to, it’s the way they live their lives *now* that I find so amazing. These gals went through 12 step programs to achieve freedom from their addictions. One thing that the 12 step programs offer that you don’t find in most drug detoxification programs is a firm belief in and reliance on a “higher power” to achieve lasting success. And I’ve also noticed that the 12 step programs don’t lead one to say “I am a recovered whatever”, but rather recovering. I think those two things are key.

First, I think addictions are one way we handle the need for personal fulfillment. If you take away the substance, and do not replace it, then that spot is left empty. Jesus talks about a similar thing in Luke 11:14-26. Secondly, I think that when we try to change ourselves by ourselves, we are pretty much guaranteeing defeat, and that it is the constant work of God in us that affects lasting change. After all, Jesus said to ask for daily bread. Not a week’s worth or a lifetime’s worth. Daily. That indicates an on-going reliance on Him to sustain us. Since He is the Bread of Life, I think it’s safe to assume a more-than-physical need meeting in that daily bread request, don’t you?

Okay, those are my thoughts for today, and I think I am done. If I’m not done, I will be back.

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I’m going to do a few drug related posts today, because there are several things I need to say. The very first thing I need to mention is that if you need help, get it. Having a drug addiction is like getting splashed with mud. Sometimes things just happen, and there you are. But just because you have the drugs in you/mud on you, doesn’t mean you have to stay that way.

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