I am tired. I cleaned today for several hours and I will be cleaning again tomorrow and probably every day this week, until I can’t clean anymore. I had thought right up until I started this post that I was cleaning because the house needs cleaning, and while it is very, very true that the house needs some attention, the truer truth is that I need some serious distraction.
I have posted so many times about my Grandmother, and I have never been able to put into words all I have in my mind and heart. that has not changed. I still won’t be able to do that, but I shall soon have to say something, I think. Grandmother is not doing well at all. She hasn’t had an actual meal in over a week, nor has she taken her medicine. Last night, she took in 10cc’s in 12 hours, and while she did tell the nurse she was hungry today, I am not counting that as a good sign.
And so, I am at home, telling myself I am doing something useful, and trying to forget what is really going on in my life right now. First thing this morning, I scheduled the Cub Scout caroling party, and then the catering for the church Christmas Banquet. And we have indeed changed it to a fully catered event, because it’s probable that I will not even attend this party that I have planned, and so we are going with full service instead of the “just the food” we had planned.
All my outside responsibilities are handled to the point I can hand them off, and now I shall clean. And wait.
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Well they do say it’s called the ‘art’ of delegation!
Cheers
I hope you find some peace inside. It’s never easy during these times.
Ya as Deb said, you need some piece of mind to get relaxed and can’t concentrate any of the other things…