Hmm, here’s a question for me. If I look at the Bible to see how I am stacking up, is that considered self assessment or something else? Here’s the passage that came to mind this evening, as I was considering my lack of Bible reading.
Romans 7:18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. 19 For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. 20 Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. 21 I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. 22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: 23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.
Oh man, let my day get busy and the Bible reading is the first thing to slip. And yet, it is absolutely the most important thing I can do all day for myself. Did you hear that? I said for myself. Reading my Bible isn’t just something I do because it makes God happy, it’s something I need to do to feed my own soul. It’s how I nourish myself, how I let God fill me so I can our back out to others. And the days that I have the most to do are the days I am most likely to starve my spiritual self. Not very smart, huh?
I do ok for a while and then, I get busier and busier and now I am off track, and it’s hit or miss, and I know that if this continues, I will run dry. I’ll be snappish, easily irritated, not grounded. I find that if I don’t read my Bible first thing, then it just doesn’t happen, so I’m purposing to have coffee with Jesus tomorrow. And ever day after that. Again. And I if I plan to meet with Jesus first thing, that means I am going to have to get up pretty early. Again.