M is for Mary Poppins.
Gratitude: Written words
The daily project
H is for Hats. I have a few.
Today’s Gratitude idea is favorite color. Mine is anything in the pink and purple range. If I had to choose just one, I think it would be lavender because it is both pink and purple.
Today’s Project: From the desktop to the ceiling. If I end up in classes this summer, I need the space to work. If I don’t end up in classes this summer, I still need the space to work. I’m willing to allow two days for this effort, because I have to “do something” with most of this stuff. I weeded out most of the pure trash last week.
When I am done, I hope to have room for a novation launchpad from musicians friend, but I DON’T plan to put it on my desk.
So. I had a dilemma. I was really enjoying my new room set-up, except for one thing. People would get ready to walk through to the bathroom and peep around the door to see what I was doing. I didn’t like that at all. I know they have to come through to the bathroom, but…that little head tilted checking out what I was doing bugged me. And yet it is important to me to make my home welcoming to my daughter’s friends. (And yes, some of her friends I also call friend.) So I re-arranged.
When I am in my bed, I can no longer be seen from the door. And I figure if I still feel voyeured, I can add a couple of tall bookcases at the foot of the bed to block myself in further. This had the unexpected added benefits of both enlarging my office space and allowing me to add a second night stand. Woohoo. Yes, I know I have an obscene amount of pillows. Get over it.
I am still practicing risotto. Tonight’s version was made with beef. I over-corrected on the salt, but lowered the heat and came much closer to the desired texture. I still could have used more broth. I think I need to measure the capacity of my ladle–it apparently holds less than the half cup I am assuming.
I had an interesting conversation last night with a friend. He is a new-ish friend, and quite unlike any friend I would have presumably picked for myself, but I am coming to think that he has landed in my lap for a reason. I chuckle as I amend that to “we seem to have landed in each other’s laps for assorted reasons.” The universe does strange things sometimes, does it not? Talking to him is much like talking to myself… plus all these books I have been meaning to read… and the thoughts I have been meaning to think… and calm, much calmer than I currently am.
Anyway, several days ago, we had an intense conversation that ended with the idea of feeling emptied and refilled. Last night, we discussed something only very tangentially involved, and by very tangentially, I mean not at all, except that it eventually led back to this idea of “emptied and refilled.”
I have been attempting purposefully to hang on to that feeling, even though I was not the first one to express it. It is a place I have found myself fleetingly several times. It is…wide open loving, accepting presence in the moment. Right here, right now, content. Unguarded, vulnerable, with the universe catching your back and the whole world in front of you. And, yes, I know that none of these are solid images, that you can’t grasp on to them and hold them and twist them around in the light. I promise I am doing the best I can, and I realize it is woefully inadequate. What if I said my New Year’s goal was birthed from that feeling? Would that make it more understandable?
Anyway, I said I have been fleetingly here before. The other side of that is that I have managed now to hold that feeling for 10 days. Which is not to say that I haven’t slipped out of it, but that I have been regularly and consistently and without great struggle coming back to this place for that ten days.
Why is that important enough to blog about? Because it is in this place that I am at my absolute best. As a person, a writer, a lover, a friend, a parent. The best stuff on this blog: written right here. The most loving and undemanding treatment of others: done right here. The most me I have ever been: right here. And so this is where I want to stay. Perhaps that is the plan of the universe in this instance. My friend can serve as a reminder to me to seek this best place, a place at once passionate and passionless.
Now, do I have a picture to go with that? You betcha. I emptied cubbies 2 and 3 today, and refilled them. My plan calls for just going through one cubby per day in this way, until I have dealt with all the piles in this room. It will take awhile. I will empty and refill many times. Except Cubby 3. It holds my stationary tin, and will continue to do so. Cubby 4 will be looked at tomorrow, but I doubt much will change. It holds the books I got from Daddy and others when I was very young. They are fragile and will never enter general household circulation. Here’s the pile of crap I threw out.
I also dealt with the stuff from cubby one, books on the bookshelf, and yarn wound and ready to work. This is Lorna’s Laces Shepherd Sock in Seaside and Lakeview. The blue and green are the same in the two colorways. I may end up mixing this yarn in a scarfulle or very tall socks. We shall see.
Those of you who don’t think an old-fashioned wooden swift is an objet d’art have clearly never used one to wind the glory that is LL Lakeview. It brought a tear of joy to my eye.
December 20 and 21–I am getting a little behind here! What did I do Thursday and Friday? *scratches head* Well, I did take pictures and that will help remind me.
Oh yeah, I pulled the washing machine out to fix it. That thing is heavy. I had flipped the breaker several times to no avail, but managed to fix the beast by unplugging and plugging it back in. Except for the hole in the gasket. I have no idea what happened there, but it was very blistered and thin, and when I touched it, it made a hole. I’ve tried several different ways to patch it, all unsuccessful. I’ll be trying a bicycle tire patch next. I don’t even want to know how much one of these would cost to replace!
I finished with that book. By which I mean, I read what I wanted to read out of it.
Then I grabbed the hammer and fixed the front porch railing and the side steps. RAWR!
Friday, I cleaned the bathroom, and did more laundry in my patch-gasketed washer. Cleared off counters are better than the best pageant trophy ever! Oh, and freaked my teenager out by going out without telling her where. She hates that.
Another busy and productive day! When I started this morning, my desk looked like this:
When I declared it done for the day, I had this:
I did more on the room later, but…yeah, I’m happy. And I’m posting this from that desk! Woohoo!
After I got that done, the kids and I worked on the living room. I fixed the vacuum cleaner, which boiled down to replacing the broken belt, and got the place ready for the tree.
And I spent some time reading and knitting. I finished these two books, by virtue of realizing half way through the first one that they were FICTION. WTH? Who write an entirely made up account of Jungian-style psychodynamic therapy?
I’m sure I will run out of things soon that I can declare finished each day, but I am enjoying this wrapping up of niggling details. The kids go back to school tomorrow, and I will have time to think through some of the stuff on my list of “thinkings to think.” Yep, I will count that too, because it’s productive. And don’t even tell me you don’t keep such a list! Also beginning tomorrow, it will be time to start cleaning the nooks and crannies of my room. I’ve pretty much gotten the furniture where I want it now. I’m still loving it!