Midlife Musings

I have a headache. Seriously, I feel like my eyes are about to pop right out from the pressure! I know it’s just sinus/allergy related, and it has just started raining, so I hope to get some relief shortly. It’s been a long time since I had to muddle thorough a whole day with a headache, and let me tell ya–it is NOT fun. It’s probably not much fun for the folks around me either, but if someone was poking their eyeball with a fork, they’d be testy too. Just sayin’

So, why am I posting here about my headache? Didn’t I tell ya’ll I wasn’t going to post unless I had something to say? Cause. Yes. I am posting here about my headache because I am trying desperately to get back into the blogging groove. And the thing I have to say is this: Someone looked me dead in the eye about 10 days ago and told me it would take a year for me to get over the past six months. I really, really hope he wasn’t right about that.

You know, I’ve heard it said that there is a sucker born every minute. Ol’ P.T. Barnum meant that in a negative way, but I am pretty sure there is a positive correlary; there is a smart and driven person born every minute. Maybe even two, if you count the minute I was born

What spurred all this? Well, I was visiting LaDonna’s 101 in 1001 and she did something that I have never seen before. She started over. She just scratched it and made a new list. And her new list is a good list. (I tried to leave you a comment, and your theme spat at me). It’s full of things that she wants to learn and do, and items that are not dependent on others for completion.

And then I visited Web Hosting Geeks and saw the web hosting reviews, and I thought–yk, someone took the time to research that stuff and then they put it out there. No one is born knowing all about web hosting. You have to research that kinda stuff. You have to invest your time and your energy, and I bet when they started, they didn’t know what the outcome of he site would even be, But there they are, and it seems to be a pretty popular site, and wow. If I ever need a new web host, I’ll remember these guys, and more than likely click through one of their reviews. They’ll get a little commission, and it will be because of the investment of time and energy they made earlier.

I’m worth that, too. I am worth investing my time and energy in, and in more than a haphazard way. Now, I haven’t looked at my 101 list in months. I know that it has been at least 7, because one of the first items on it had to do with Grandmother, and I just….haven’t been able to look back through it. And one had to do with my Dad, whose been working on night shift and shut down and there’s nothing *I* can do about that. There were items that depended on having money, and I don’t always have that. And then there is the simple fact that I didn’t set aside time to do it. But I think maybe I’m going to join LaDonna and just have myself a little do-over. Item number 1 of 101 can be “acknowledge that I am worth my own time and energy”.

Still here, still sane. Not like the crazy woman in the above picture. I don’t know what her problem is. And why does my hair blend into the background here?

You know what I need? I need the Wee Sing Bible Songs book and cd. I need it for Sunday School, and I have needed it for several months. Buy you know what else? I never get to town. And when I DO get to town, I am in a hurry or with my mother who is on a hurry, or can’t find it.

Now, I happen to know the words to the song I am teaching the children (don’t pat me on the back too much, it’s just the books of the Bible), but they need to start practicing with the music. Otherwise…well, would you want to stand up in fromt of the congregation leading a group of kids who had only just heard the music to the song they’d been singing for months? Nope, didn’t think so. I’ll probably end up ordering the book from christianbook, but that only solves the current problem, and not the bigger issue.

The bigger issue is that I have once again managed to put off spending time on myself, and I know that when I do that, I start to get frayed at the edges. I’ve been working really hard lately at remaining on a more even keel, and that does require some recharging of my own batteries. Also, you need to know that football season is coming up, and I will be scheduled 3 nights a week plus Saturdays from August fourth until at least Thanksgiving and possibly Christmas. Here’s our poll:

Will Cass or will Cass not make it to New Year’s without blowing a gasket? Is the likelihood of achieving that goal significantly increased by planning down time for herself, by herself? Is she smart enough yet to make that a priority item?

Well, boys and girls, it’s time to start thinking about September. See, in September, I am going on a trip. I am going to Orlando to hang with people I like and try to avoid people I don’t, and right now, I am not quite sure how many of each there will be, but I am sure that the wonderfulness of being with those I do will outweigh the stress of seeing those I don’t. How’s that for a round about thing??

Anyway, the big decision is how to get there. I was going to ride wih a friend, but now I am not sure if she’s still planning to drive, so I am looking at flights and comparing them to car rental. I’ll have to calculate the cost of gasoline into the occasion, but that may be a possibility.

Advantage is offering up to a 50% discount on luxury and convertible car rentals. I’ve always wanted to drive a red convertible. Too bad that I would look like Broom Hilda before I hit the highway. Unless I wore a head scarf, which is an idea, but somehow doesn’t sound quite as fun and freewheeling. They have other car rental discounts, too. Too bad I’m not in Florida his very minute wanting to get to Ang. I could do that for a buck a day!