I’ve been doing alot of thinking in the past few days,and I guess I’ve had a paradigm shift. I’ve been thinking about doing so and so “when life gets back to normal”. Last week, I realized that this is my normal. Everyday is different, it’s just a fact of my current life. What this means is that I need to change the way I live it, because my life is going to be this way for quite some time to come. I need to embrace and enjoy it, instead of fighting it. I know this seems so simplistic, and maybe obvious to some of you. But if you knew how I crave structure, you’d realize this is a major change in philosophy for me. I like boxes, and my current life refuses to be crammed into neat stacks of stuff. And I don’t want to force my children into artificial square shaped conveniences.