It’s 8 pm and I am ready for bed. What an exciting life I lead, eh? It will be couple of hours yet before I get there, more like three, but … it’s good sleeping weather just this minute. Rain drumming on the roof, the ultimate lullaby.

Tomorrow, I am planning an exciting day! My friend Deb, who came to see me last year, is an hour away, and I will be meeting her for the afternoon. We’ll hang out, and eat an early supper together, and we are both giddy to see each other again.

Tonight, I made two lasagnas. I put them together, so rich and lucious. I put them in the oven to bake I sat down and I calculated the calories and saturated fat. And then I went to the freezer and took out a chicken breast for my supper. My lasagna is not on my list of good food choices, at 13 grams of saturated fat per serving. At least not today, when I had already eaten 7.5 grams with the earlier meals.

Today, I got something in the mail. If I was a man, it would have been obvious how excited I was. Since I am not, I will just show you a picture and leave the rest up to your imagination.

Yes, I have a fixation.

You know what I need? I need the Wee Sing Bible Songs book and cd. I need it for Sunday School, and I have needed it for several months. Buy you know what else? I never get to town. And when I DO get to town, I am in a hurry or with my mother who is on a hurry, or can’t find it.

Now, I happen to know the words to the song I am teaching the children (don’t pat me on the back too much, it’s just the books of the Bible), but they need to start practicing with the music. Otherwise…well, would you want to stand up in fromt of the congregation leading a group of kids who had only just heard the music to the song they’d been singing for months? Nope, didn’t think so. I’ll probably end up ordering the book from christianbook, but that only solves the current problem, and not the bigger issue.

The bigger issue is that I have once again managed to put off spending time on myself, and I know that when I do that, I start to get frayed at the edges. I’ve been working really hard lately at remaining on a more even keel, and that does require some recharging of my own batteries. Also, you need to know that football season is coming up, and I will be scheduled 3 nights a week plus Saturdays from August fourth until at least Thanksgiving and possibly Christmas. Here’s our poll:

Will Cass or will Cass not make it to New Year’s without blowing a gasket? Is the likelihood of achieving that goal significantly increased by planning down time for herself, by herself? Is she smart enough yet to make that a priority item?

Today I met two strangers in an air conditoned travel trailer. I handed one of them some paper and proved that I am who I claim to be. Then I went with the other one into a small cold room and took off a good portion of my clothes. This second one took my frozen boobs and placed them on a tray, one at a time. Then she squeezed and pressed them until they were flat and quite squished. And she took a picture. She did this four times. I managed to not pee on myself, but it was touch and go there for a while. I still can’t figure out why she was rubbing my hair, though.

Yes, it was my mother, and she says she was in her late 20s when that portrait was made.

Just a little note to myself, and also maybe to others who use mineral makeup and end up looking shiny way before they should. Remember to BUFF the foundation into your skin, and not just brush it on. Yes, even if you are in a hurry. Perhaps especially if you are in a hurry, because being “not shiny” covers a multitude of sins, and you can hurry through the other steps.

In other news, I look a lot less shiny today (and yesterday, and the day before), than I did on Sunday!

Not now, but apparently some time in the past, I just quit. I got so overwhelmed that I just said to heck with it and stopped. Stopped cleaning, stopped cooking, stopped encouraging, stopped caring, just stopped. And I know that this is so, because I live in here, and I know what my house is like and I know what my heart is like, and I am just sitting here asking myself when did I quit?

I know it was awhile ago, because I am writing this post from a todo list that I started in Vegas, and that means that in Vegas I was considering “coming back”. So really, I wonder….what caused it? Because I’m dealing with frustrations, and I hate to be frustrated. This little box does not frustrate me, see. It does what I tell it, when I tell it and exactly how I tell it, for the most part. It doesn’t need the van when I do, it never passes gas until I cough and cry. And it’s not noisy, and it’s neat and orderly, and solid and dependable. Also, I never have to change it’s diaper. Or make allowances for it’s hormones.

So, anyway, here I am back again. Not on the blog, but in my life. And it’s very messy, and I am very overwhelmed, and sometimes it just STINKS, but I can take it for 15 minutes, and so that’s what I am doing–living life 45 and 15 minutes at a time. And it’s paying off, because it’s getting cleaner and it’s getting quieter, and it’s even getting huggier. Now if I could just figure out what to do about that gas!

/end first item from 6 page to do list!

I have done a good bit of cleaning today, but the thing I am most pleased with is my weekly schedule. Here’s my basic plan:

Monday: Master Bath-mirrors, sinks and counters, tub, shower, toilet, floor, wipe cabinet fronts
Tuesday: Master Bedroom-mirrors, dust, sheets, changing table, vacuum, pull extra hangers from dh’s closet
Wednesday: Living Room and Work Area-entertainment center, desk, craft hutch, bookshelves, toys, dust, vacuum
Thursday: Kid Zone-girls (sheets, closet, dust, vac), boys (sheets, closet, vac), bathroom (mirror, sink, tub, toilet, floor)
Friday: Kitchen and Laundry Area-frig, microwave, stove, counters, wipe cabinet fronts, hutch, washer and dryer tops, floor
Saturday: Shopping, Errands, Me Time

I’m not even going to list all my daily stuff, because it’s just scary. Trust, me, there is a lot of it. But this weekly plan, I think is going to be a big boost for me, because I won’t be wasting time spinning my wheels wondering what to do. And all that wheel spinning really cuts into my posting time. As does crisis cleaning, which is why I don’t want to do those things any more. I want to play and write, instead!

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